In less than 12 hours, I will be in Kansas. I have confirmed that my hotel has my bike which was a big breath of relief for me. I don't doubt for a second that what I am doing is right, but the task that lies ahead is weighing heavy on me as the kids go to sleep and I am left to my own thoughts. I remember a night like this 23 years ago and the feeling of being a bit nervous but excited at the same time. It's hard to describe exactly, but it's like sitting on the highest part of a roller coaster with the breaks intentionally holding you for an extended stay. As I inhale deeply, I know that the big drop and resulting rush is imminent. I also know that regardless of how afraid I might be, that I am committed and there is no getting off the ride. So I use those last few seconds to put my fears to rest. I brace myself, exhale and just enjoy the ride.
I'm older, slower and fatter, but the feeling I felt back then is much the same as tonight. I am relieved that approaching fifty doesn't mean that I have to surrender the feeling of being alive and energized. If I manipulate the feeling a bit, I get to feel young again (for a bit).
21 Days from today, I will return to Davidsonville, Maryland. I look forward to keeping you posted along the way. All the training and planning is done. The bags are packed. The bike is waiting. I am ready.
Thank you again for all of your support. It means a lot and it will mean a lot on the road, so please keep the encouragement coming.
The song below kind of sums up how I'm feeling tonight
Ain't Wastin' Time No More.
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